shock waves from the past

Recently I read a book by the name of "days with juhaiman" the person well known to be the mastermind of the grand mosque's break-in and control in the holy city of mecca with a strong faith and an AK-47. Under the influence of the media's story people have always looked at him as the demented criminal requesting the world to accept the fact that he discovered the "Mahdi" = the chosen one as the Islamic "end of time" story talked about sharing the prophecy of the other monotheistic religions with a different winner of course. Finishing this book in a day and a half gives some idea about the passion that caught me as the writer him self was one of the closest members to juhaiman in which he was a believer in his leadership but only refused to break in with him and rejected the mahdi story the thing that saved his neck to tell us the story now .
what if juhaiman knew that his brain is full with nonsense "at least what is related to the end of time" and tried to pass by all of his ideas of a  better world "his version" by causing a massive mental earthquake using the that small parts of doubt in every denier's head !? the act was massive to the point that some people that were kidnapped inside the mosque believed it because no one will dare taking over like this unless he was the one .... a crappy alternative history scenario I know ... well I think that such mentality can be individualized as in love. love "at least in the hormonally derived youth" has this phenomenon that makes us a believers of an idea to a hysterical point thinking that we reached the ultimate goal of our existence discovering after the tragic ending that we were a part of a dirty psychological rewarding scam supervised by our dopamine releasing neurons .. the same neurons that suddenly stopped to make you face the reality again
what is life worth without such strong beliefs ? our pursuit for happiness never stops and our minds tries every while and then to trick us into thinking that we founded our reason to be alive not only that but we tend to share it even by force with others ... we all have it in us either we carried the AK47 or just wrote under a nickname in such a blog the difference that some have the balls to carry it to the end even if it was wrong and that what counts.
It is a frightening fact to think that war criminals and terrorists all over the world took all of their victims as an acceptable loss for the bigger goal.
I need to have such spirit as I lost it somewhere along time ago. I promise that I'll use it in a good way :(
P.S. yes, he is looking at you